I wrote this post on May 31, but it slipped through the cracks...
This week I must have played Under The Milky Way by The Church about 30 times. This soothing song has never worn out. It's now 20 years old. 20. It takes me back to the end of my freshman year in college, which was a very good time in my life.
Under The Milky Way is a song that stretches out and waits for you. Like a lover who doesn't ever bother trying to play "sexy"... that's what makes this sexy. I love the way the guitar sounds like a bagpipe. I love the way the bass comes in at the line "Lower the curtain down on Memphis." (:42 secs). And I relate to the wistfulness of the lyric, "Wish I knew what you looking for / Might've known what you would find."
I've been a bit pensive recently. It's not that I never thought about the future, but for some reason the future seems to have arrived this year and it's not what I'd hoped for. I've been reading about the Sex And The City film and how it's about the disappointments of life. Is it ever "too late" for something? At what point do you become resigned that certain things are likely not to happen? Because if you keep hoping for it, sadness is sure to follow. At what point does resignation actually become true self-defeat? I took for granted that many things would just "happen" and they didn't.
Fortunately, I don't think I'm too different from the 19-year-old me that played this song endlessly. I am a little wiser, even if I don't wear that too visibly. My best friends from that period are still my best friends, an achievement I don't take for granted. I'm not even sure there is anything I would go back and tell my younger self, except maybe, "It'll be okay, but you have to ignore fear." I sort of miss that version of myself and if I have any goal, it's to see the future as filled with potential, not regret or worry.
If you are too young to really know this song, I urge you to play it a few times. It's on iTunes worldwide.